Hey man! Good to hear from you. Listen, about that. It's it and there's nothing we can do. I was out over there on the dock looking at the ocean and it was so quiet. I looked over there and she was there too, sitting in the sand. She looked a little different than I remembered. After all it's been four years. It's crazy how some people change. Sometimes they don't but she did. I recognized her of course but I didn't know if I should get her attention. What would you do? You think you know but in the moment anything can happen. Maybe you freeze, or maybe you pretend you don't see her and secretly hope she shouts first, then you can act surprised. Or maybe you just listen to yourself and go over there and act like nothing happened between you, or that it didn't make you into the addicted neurotic mess you were today. Look, my point is nobody knows what you'll do until you're in that situation.

It was dark. I liked that. No light except the cold weird moon. Have you ever just seen the light of the moon? It's not a familiar or comforting light. It's harsh and hard and cold and brings out the weirdest details that you don't notice in the daytime. Or maybe it's just your frantic state of mind, seeing everything through the lens of anxiety because she's over there on the beach staring at the horizon just like you were. Don't blame the moon. Or do blame the moon. What the fuck do I know? We'd talked about doing this for a long time, going to the beach at night but of course it never happened. And now here we were. I wondered what she was thinking. I wondered if she was feeling better or she had gotten worse, if the dread of the world was finally becoming too much and she imagined escaping into the ocean... or if she had healed from the past and coming out here in the icy sand was her way of saying goodbye. Why was I even thinking about her? What about me? Why was I out here? Which was it for me? To be honest I didn't know when I would get back to check out the new deals at REI. I like that they have the hashtag #optoutside. It shows they care about more than just money. For example, their new points rewards program lets me store 15% off on an account and throughout the year it accumulates with each new purchase I make! At the end of the year if I made enough on my rewards card I can cash it out for a return! I got a free hammock out of it last year haha. It's great. They treat their employees really well too. Every month they have a employee retreat where they test out great new REI gear! Imma apply just so I can do that haha. I entered a raffle where you get free tents. Didn't win but I liked being part of the process. I think more companies should do this. It brings a human element to the company and I for one support it. There's a REI cookout event this weekend and I'll be there for sure, supporting the company that appreciates my business, because I appreciate THEIR business. FREE SWAG! That's what I like. I got a little window sticker that Imma put on the back of my car so I can show others that I support ethical companies. What I love about this link is that there are 146 other images to load. It goes on and on! Every one is funny but taken all together makes me start to question our reality a little bit haha. Just click the link. Click it and a cookie will be stored in your browser. You shouldn't delete cookies because those let other websites know more about you as a customer and therefore they can deliver more relatable ad content.